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I wish I could push a dislike button in my life when I start to like someone that doesn't like me. But I can't seem to and endlessly set myself up for failure.

It usually goes like this...I meet a great guy who loves Jesus...I begin to get interested in him...he talks about someone else he likes, who is nothing like me...I try to distance myself...but would like to have a friend...but the internal butterflies won't go away...I try to wish them away...then pray them away....then realize they won't go away....so I give into the fact that I will always have butterflies for this person and they will never return anything....then I just make myself numb and try to ignore him.

I will never find love, at least not the earthly kind....will I?